One of my most favorite subject is psychology. Maybe because, at times, I’m a bit psychic. I once wrote a blog post named “Doppelganger” and I removed it for some unknown reasons. Today, I could find it’s draft and it made me rethink and I decided to modify and re-post it.
Once upon a time in my life, I would rather tell like, I’d experienced a dream, which later helped me to understand more about the inner corners of my mind.
I called him stonehearted as I knew that even stones have a heart which can preserve anything that is written on it.
He was innocent, innocent like a flower, probably a rose flower whose thorns never hurt my fingers and let them bleed.
His simplicity seemed to be complex for me, but he called me simple despite of my complexity.
He loved music and sang the same song several times a day in several different tunes.
His smile was beautiful, just like the smile of a small baby, but rarely did he smile to me.
When I told him to be the God of small things, he was exploring the horizons of innovative ideas.
He was begging to himself to talk to me while I got tired of talking to him.
Whenever I stood before a mirror, all I could see was only a single reflection of a single expression, but whenever I stood before him, I could see multiple reflections of multiple expressions.
I studied consistency from his struggles with inconsistency.
When I failed to express myself using words, he beautifully expressed himself by means of silence.
His eyes had a depth somewhat greater than that of a deep blue sea, but he told that “you’ve the most beautiful eyes in this world”.
All of a sudden I was dropped into a world of reality and understood that I was caught in a dream. “He” was exactly the complimentary part of my mind which was kept unrevealed by my consciousness.
Yes, every person has their own mirror image in this world. The word doppelganger literally means “identical spirit of a living person”, but I would like to evaluate that concept in my own point of view. As far as I’m concerned, a doppelganger is a complimentary, unrevealed part of human mind. Some will find it intentionally or some will find it accidentally. Some will find it in their lifetime whereas some others will never find it. Some may go in search of it whereas some others end up as a mere failure. For some, it can be a dream that no one else could have and some others never even come to know about it. 🙂
In my case, I always wished that such an emotional perception, which is as sweet as a poem and as pure as a crystal, unfold when I close my eyes and let it hibernate in the interior depth of my eyes when I open them towards the rest of the world .. Here ends my post and now I wanna give a post script for it.
PS:- And finally, I would like to mention that something called fate set a path and led my doppelganger to me. He, who didn’t possess a form but for whom I always yearned knowingly or unknowingly in the very depth of my mind finally reached me after years of a lonely journey.. Now he is just beside me not as a mere concept, but in his complete physical form as my soulmate who exactly coincides me in all aspects. 🙂
The Alchemist told a truth, “If you really want something, the whole universe conspires in helping you to achieve it“.
I always yearned for love, and finally love came in search of me..
